Monday, March 26, 2007
hahaha this is an important post!
yes. these few days have been absolutely horrible. but... there are parts which have been better than what i've had in ages.
it's finally starting to sink in that people care and love me.
whoa. haha many thanks to tink peiling yunxi waiian ben tiff ruth yuanting(though i doubt she'll see this haha)... for all the love and for caring and everything! every sms counts :) seriously i realise that these few days e smses i've received from them are super sweet and happying! really grateful for them haha.
and God... though i still feel like i can't see Him, don't understand Him, don't know Him... thankYou so much for chasing me down. and for moments like those.
ahhh still frustrating!!! but! there's hope :)
yea thankyou friends :) take care all! esp xiaolongpao! <3
ciao.
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Friday, March 09, 2007
haha things are getting better :) today was a pretty happy day!
because!
1. it was second orientation! no lessons hahaha. somemore thurs are usually long days...
2. my ki and econs tests were SETTLED. NO MORE!
3. i like my og. it has nice people. and today was relaxing. slack. i like. yay.
4. jeslin yiliang minqi are STAYING! yayy! hahahaha this one really made me happy. if they didnt get in i would be very sad. haha but they did! and yayy its just very happy-ing! for various reasons also. but :D
5. things are getting better spiritually. i think a bit little by little. its still very ahhh but its slowly slowly littlebitty getting better. still unstable but! still getting better.
hahaha yea i'm glad to be in rj. feel quite blessed actually. think its quite cool to be in a raffles school.
but i miss juniors alot. OHYES! the day they came to rj... tuesday! for vic's birthday! hahaha mannn i miss juniors soooo much! hanging out and talking and all... ahhh juniors make me smile :) wanted to go with them and hang out somemore at j8 but in the end i didnt. haha. but! mon tues wed next week is march camp! yayy so fun! hopehopehope i can go. then can mix with the little sec1s! and talk and have fun with the other juniors! mingleminglemingle :D
hols are coming... got holiday homework!
- geog essay thingy
- math assignment thing
- KI; coming up with "x"
- have to revise work ahhh.
i wonder how much i'll actually do in the holidays man. haha!
mmm. i need God. sometimes its tough though, cos it feels like you are on the wrong track, and God's not doing anything... and its frustrating cos then the lies start coming up, and those get you down. and all you feel like you can do is splash helplessly in the water. but! hmm yea there are so many promises for those who trust in Him... trusting in His character. and He is worthy of our trust i guess.
tired. struggling is tiring. haha yea.
haha heyy juniors i'm missing you all loads!
ah!:
God, I have heard that you are never late, seldom early, but always on time. When I think back through the experiences of my life, I can see the truth in that statement. Thank you for always being on time. Thank you for the lessons you have taught me through waiting, through suffering, through the storms and valleys and for your faithfulness always. Thank you for the rays of sun that peaked through the clouds in the way of a praying spirit and helping hand from other Christians. Thank you for the sun that shone brightly after the storms and cloudy days, and for your son who is my sun and shield, the Lord Jesus Christ. If you had always been on my time schedule, I wouldn't have learned much in life, so I am thankful that you are always on time according to your schedule. I praise you for who you are and all you've done. May I be found worthy in your sight through the blood of the Savior. In His name I pray, amen.
ciao.
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Saturday, March 03, 2007
"God, I've learned about how Jesus turned water into wine at that wedding in Cana. All Mary did was to present the problem to Him. She did not ask for Him to do anything specifically. She just said "we have no wine." Jesus stepped in and knew what to do. Lord, I come to You and lift up the people who are heavy on my heart. You know that they "have no wine." I am not telling You what I want You do do. I am just acknowledging the need. You know what to do. You are all-knowing and all powerful. You can heal. You can change the course of things. You can provide any need. You can do anything. I know that anything You do will be the better solution than anything I can think of. Please take these burdens...and work it all out as I know You can. Thank You for Your loving and merciful acts. I praise You, God, in the name of Jesus. Amen."
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.mmm. i've got stuff i'm struggling with. and rah this dog-eat-dog world is getting to me. its very hard to genuinely consider other's needs before your own... and the stress to do sth well, to make sure everything's fine on your side first before looking out for people... I DON'T LIKE IT. wonder how to manage it. nooooooooo. ahhhhhhh. itspossible. okayokay. pray for me yes? and i feel bad asking for prayer requests when i myself am unwilling to put other's needs before mine. ohwells i learn.but no. i can't let the world sweep me away.
talking to juniors is nice. love it when i go back and see familiar people i'm comfortable with, who i can talk to and just relax. its different in rj, even with close friends. ahhhh somehow there's this sense of guardedness. like ultimately if the going gets tough, everyone will be watching out for themselves. not saying its everyone, there are still a few people who you know you can trust. but sigh. i'm becoming like what i don't like. watching out for myself before others. i don't like it. i reallyreally don't.
rah. this sounds very emo right.
but NONONO. hil's got God. its possible to still genuinely want to bless others! there is hope!
there's got to be a difference between those who wear a cross on their neck and those who don't. where is it? sighsigh i've got a long way to go. am not gonna be going anywhere on my own strength. boooo still so much to learn!
i'm sorry for this post.
but for all those out there who are struggling... will be praying. God remembers you, all your struggles and experiences and rah-situations!
hahaha guess what song is playing now?
praise Him in the storm.
ciao.
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