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Tuesday, May 31, 2005

today... had camp meeting with a bit of batch! so fun...

first. met laogong for lunch. ate toriQ. the food there is nice man... then walk walk a bit then went to school.

met the nocturnal pple. basically discussed stuff and talked a lot of crap. haha! then some of the diurnal pple came. talked more crap! then me had to go see glk. cos have to check if the tee design has been approved. so, of course must get ready lah. had to make some major adjustments to my attire. lol.

1. unfolded my culottes. after unfolding it actually touched my knee lah! so uncomfortable can? originally it was folded twice. so i unfolded it once. won't be able to take it if it goes below my knees man.
2. tucked in my shirt. as in really tuck into the culottes. normally i would just tuck it into the fold of the culottes but that wouldn't be too guai would it?
3. clipped up my hair. cos it was really messy. my normal self lah.
4. pulled up my socks.
5. wore my nametag. i almost forgot to wear it lah! only when someone pointed it out... haha.
6. i tried unrolling my sleeves but it was simply too uncomfortable.

yeah. and i was all ready to go see glk! i looked so toot. batchmates were all shouting out stuff to be corrected in my attire. haha. argh i looked so TOOT! haha but its for the company. lol! then lina took a pic of me i think. i put on a dao expression. someone said i looked pissed. but i wasnt. haha. and i was off! with shana! whose belt was high!

and after going through all that trouble... i found out. she wasnt in school.

some person on the phone told me she wasnt in school lah. so the moment i put down the phone my hand was alr pulling out my shirt from my culottes. even though it was right outside the staffroom. then while walking i folded my culottes... in front of ms wu! haha! it felt so great to be in pai attire again man...

then we did somemore camp stuff. then the nocturnal pple decided to go home. but halfway we felt guilty and decided to buy some stuff back for the hardworking diurnal pple. so we walked to far east. bought big gulp for them. took bus back to school. yeah. this is wat i call batch spirit man! the diurnal pple were all pleasantly surprised... haha.

oh yeah we had some crazy behaviour during the meeting haha. lina was singing "do a deer". then we all suddenly started singing. and i was playing the guit, frantically trying to figure out the chords. haha! so fun. then. lina. started taking this stick and started swishing it around. i thought that it looked like a lightsaber so i took out another stick and started duelling with her. lol. lightsaber fight! yeah. and we got a batch icon! or whatever you call it. cos we found this smiley face tape in the gb cupboard. so cute! so we're labelling all our stuff with that. haha.

and then i went home with my laogong. took 518, slept the whole way. i've done that only once before. whoo. i was tired.

hmm. 8th june. our batch was discussing whether to go. hmm.

ciao.

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Sunday, May 29, 2005

whoo yay today was fun! although fingertips hurt like crazy now...

hmm. played keys today. played quite badly haha. but it was still okay i guess. i think i've changed in that i dun get so freaked out when i make mistakes on the piano anymore... even though its very ob. i just continue playing and stick out my tongue and make a face but thats all. yayy it helps to get your attitude right before playing... the purpose driven life book has helped me loads man...

then had baptism class. prefer uncle anthony to ron fountain. haha. much more interesting.

then had jamming. i played the guit! which explains the deep pain my fingertips are in. yayy i think i'm improving! love playing the guit man. and i wanna be better, to show everyone that this is what God has done for me... to glorify His holy name...

yeah the songs we played were very nice. now i think my skin is gone. there's this super sore pink part that hurts loads. haha.

ciao.

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Saturday, May 28, 2005

hmm just read valtan's blog. yeah. and it kinda struck me that... whoa. suddenly half a year is over. i've been away from 207 for half a year. and been mixing with my classmates from 302. and getting to know them loads better. seems very short eh... the whole of term two was basically just chionging perf task after perf task after perf task. and all the homework... its just like, stuff whizzing by. u sit there, and handle stuff that fly into your hands. am i gonna do this my whole life? just get caught up in this endless rushing? what is my purpose? i know in theory that its to glorify God and bring others to Him and all but... how?

yeah i've wasted half a year. k not completely wasted lah. got to know a lot more pple better. got to know new pple! but also grew further apart from some... but what have i done that can be brought up to heaven? these 6months (or rather 5)... it seems so fast. even sec2 never seemed so fast. it really feels weird. like in one a half years i'll be going RJ... i think. haha. and then i'll go on to do stuff... but wat? haiyah. this is so... surreal? i dunno lah.

made a list of things that make me irritated:
-being disturbed when i'm in the middle of playing a song on piano/guit.
-being woken up from naps when i barely had enough
-crowded places
-being rushed when the deadline is still very far
-not knowing what is going on when i'm supposed to do sth
-pple not replying important msgs
-crying babies (haha!)
-trying to talk to me when i'm super tired

yeah that should be it. cos was irritated quite a lot these few days... by family. haha.

ciao.

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whoo. finally its the school hols. was waiting for it ever since week1. lol! haha. but there's so much hw lahh... nevermind, hil shall do them all!

yayy. my mum went for the parent-teacher meeting. and she didnt meet the physics teacher!!! haha!!! cos the physics teacher was taking so long talking to another parent. so mum got pissed and went home. waited for half and hour leh. hehe everytime my mum wants to see a teacher that will most prob have bad comments bout me, she ends up getting pissed off by them some way or another. haha! last year also... but this will not last long... mum says she gonna email the teacher. cos my physics really v lan. 50/100. how zun4 is that?

was reading my report book... the comments. haha. very funny. all the teachers seem to think that i take my learning very seriously. lol! last year almost every teacher said that lah. this year... okay lah. haha.

today was sooo tired... been sleeping 4hrs a day... then having 12hr days in school... then yesterday cos of band prac wore my sch uniform for bout 17hrs lah. from 6am to 11pm. yeah. blahh. so today piano class... was so tired. couldnt concentrate. even normal harmonic scales also made so many mistakes lah. not to mention exam pieces. whoo. have to practice a lot... haha.

bike for bibles. thought i was gonna die lah. so tired still go bike. but it was fun! cos there were so little pple, then can talk more and bond more mah. yayy it was fun. we all decided not to go to the checkpoints and just bike around. hehe. i was the kind of 'leader'! cos i had a yellow bandana, then easier to spot and follow. i like my yellow bandana. its so nice and bright.

then went to eat coconuts. haha ora! yeah. i ate two. two small ones. then tiddy was so scared of the cat... or rather kitten. haha! yeah then we went back to mainland singapore!!

and i went home. and here i am. yayy.

ciao.

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Thursday, May 26, 2005

wahh. super tiring. had two twelve hour school days in a row. and those happen to be the days which have the most hw lah. wat kind of logic is this?! imagine... yesterday got home at 8. chionged hw till 1am. of course was doing other stuff also lah. yayy i thank God for being with me all this while. yeah. anyway after only bout 4hrs of sleep, have to wake up and go through another 12 hour day, which also has a lot of hw, which probably means sleeping at 1am again. then after that bare 4hrs of sleep, have to wake up. and this time. leave house at 6am. probably reaching house back at 9pm lah. fine fine.

tmr's my sis bday. considering whether to go for band prac. hmm... hmmmmm.... dunno lah.

oh. today was an extreme day. full of ups and downs. during chem, the chem teacher was in a totally bad mood lah. kept stopping us to make some sarcastic remark and exclaim how we should have known to do the filter paper test after the bubbling test, and that one should nvr stick a pipette all the way into a test tube cos it contaminates the pure liquids. was getting super irritated. was starting to like her... and she was sadistic today. when pple started inhaling the sulphur dioxide and felt unwell, she was like,' i am in a sadistic mood today, probably thats why i feel like laughing at all of you.' like... whatever?

then. bio. haha. sandy was in a laughing mood today. laughing through out bio. so i laughed with her for the first half of bio. then suddenly just lost the desire to laugh. then when she was drinking water i just laughed a bit and she almost spat the whole thing out lah! haha!

then cooking. was super sian of cleaning up. and super sian of staying back for long twelve hour days. blahh.

now i'm back home to do hw. whooo.

ciao.

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Wednesday, May 25, 2005

wahaha today was so funny... gb. was having squad meeting. was late for squad meeting. i was so shocked to see debbie there lah.... then i was the only sec 3. oldest after debbie. whoo. then. debbie asked a ques. everyone was silent. then. debbie nudged me and said:"hey u're the only sec3 here, take charge!" i was so shocked! but okay. i re-asked the ques and made everyone go in one round. then debbie shared her thoughts. then i shared my thoughts and the starfish story. yeah. then end of squad time.

exco meeting, lyd lina val and i went to 104 classroom to do hw. them lah, not me. i dun do hw. it was SUPER FUNNY LAH! they were saying cos i blowed the straw that lydia blew, so i would get the extremely contagious disease that lydia has. and i would prob die and go to hell or sth. (no! i'm going to heaven! so there! i reject this curse in the name of Jesus Christ) so they were writing hell notes for me... super funny lah! so random... they drew 66 things. haha. i just realised. just add one more 6... it would be bad. yeah. this is the list of wat they drew for me:

nail polish
parang
brush
cheerleader
icecube
negative penguin
sanitary pad
gay hairstylist
electric guit+amp
pompoms
lock
key to open the lock
dancing shoes
rgs
popular
7/11
car
earphones
contact lenses
sweets
concealer
whale
starmex aircon
another aircon
luscious lips??!!
boyfriend
kilat
another kilat
house
phua chu kang
flower
square specs
triangular specs
baby
ecstasy
ketamine
antibiotics
tea
xmas tree
wings
screwdriver
planetshakers
bible
james ong
richard chee
debtan to look after the two
straw
fridge
assignment for quadratic equations
mouse/cat
scissors
val lyd lina
jolyn
gb photo
boots
lipstick
apple
cadbury
limhueymiin
upss
brain
softball glove
bball
pineapple tart
ipod

yeah. thats all i can find in my pocket. haha! but seriously when lina is hyper and random she is super funny. yeah. bonded! haha. had so much fun. then. debbie said that we would start at 5.30 and end by 6.30. yeah like that happened. started at 6.15 lah! then ended at 6.45. haha. then debbie asked me to start by prayer. hmm she's like pushing me into leadership positions.
the groupings... and the leaders... hmm. have some reservations bout it.

yayy lina and lydia say i'm looking a lot nicer than last time! haha. was being ego and kept saying 'thanks ah'... hehe.

ciao.

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Tuesday, May 24, 2005

today... ran 2.4. wahh. super shack lahh. first 3-4 rounds was okay... about 2 and a half minutes per round like that. then 5-6 round i started doing 3min per round. haha. i was super slow lah. 18.20. got an E. but i dun care. at least i passed! and sth happened that made me quite... happy? during the run haha. oh. at the last half round. pple were yelling at me to hurry up, sth bout only 30 secs left. so i sprinted. i've never sprinted so fast in a 2.4 run before. yeah. and i made it! but after that... whoa.

felt super dizzy. and stomach was super pain. spots were kinda appearing in front of my eyes... but then that happens quite a lot lahh. took about 20min for the giddiness to go away. half an hour for the stomach pain. whoooo! but i made it!

but then... haha. couldnt climb stairs. left my discman in class, went up to get. just climbing those 2 flights of stairs... torture man. at the first flight alr gonna die. then second flight... whoo. yeah. then i took 518 home.

there was this weird lady on the bus who smelt like fried chicken. so nice. made me feel so hungry... as in really nice fresh out of the er.. cooking pan fried chicken. mmmm...

now. physics perf task. i am at loss at wat to do. HOWWW?!

ciao.

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Saturday, May 21, 2005

haha. a lot of pple say i've changed a lot. yeah. i kinda think so too.

hehe, i think i've become more outspoken, bolder. dare to talk liao... last time i was quite quiet. haha! yayy. and also. hmm... more... feminine? after i cut my hair. lol! and also after i got influenced by rshl... yeahh. is that influence good or bad? i dunno. and ahhh... more mature? actually i dun really think so. i've never really been mature before. okay lah sometimes got. haha, but some pple u just cannot imagine them being childish one. like pearlyn chen. and i dunno, but i think also mich. i cannot imagine her being young and childish and immature. lol. she's too.... ah.... mature? in her thoughts lah. haha.

and. i discovered stuff about her that u will NEVER EXPECT! hahahaha!!! like... haha. aiyah. dun say lah. ask her permission first. but its super funny lah. didnt expect her to be so.... mature? haha i'm using that word a lot.

ciao.

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Friday, May 20, 2005

haha today was quite... eventful? interesting? yes. interesting.

first lesson pe. haha. sandy and i had a "man-to-man" talk. it was totally silent. we're doing a lot of that nowadays... talking with our eyes and mouthing words when there are a lot of pple and when we want to talk private stuff. charissa witness before! haha! anyway. about our "man-to-man" talk. someone called us. then sandy said: "simi!" then i said:"daichi!" haha. funny.

assembly. debtan warned us that the school may be conducting random checks on pple's blog. if they find anything that is bad or defamatory about the teachers they will make the accused make a public apology. like whatever lah!

then rs. free block. okay. so i listened to my discman a bit... and the last two entries came out lah. haha thanks sandy for your advice! although i kinda deleted it all... ACCIDENTALLY. u know how close the 'C' and 'V' keys are? the answer is very close.

physics. super boring. then after physics. stayed back to type the last blog entry. sandy helped too! haha. yayy.

public apology i shall now make. i hereby apologise unreservedly to the "her" i kinda referred to in my past few blog entries! sorry sorry sorry. anyone got any suggestions on wat punishment i should do? hehe got quite a lot of ideas from the red cross pple.... but seriously. i will make it up to you. yeah.

STAR WARS III!!!

ciao.

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i'm feeling horrible and remorseful and guilty now... sighh... ha. was thinking. during class. and felt guiltier and guiltier by the min. hehe. then i read a letter written by her. and felt EVEN GUILTIER!!! arghh. then i listened to my walkman. (in school haha!) song number ten. cd is [rain down]. i dunno what its called. i always remember songs by their numbers. yeah. that [rain down] cd. my only [rain down] cd. looked at it awhile. and the guilty feeling INCREASED! like whatever i've never really felt this bad before... at least not that i can remember. what to doooo!!! saw her just now but was too -------- to do anything. you loser. muz have some courage ma... aiyo... juz go up to her and get donme with it. the more u drag the worse u feel. clear it up!(sandy) but how! she go home liao eh! how about u call her and tell her first? or else arrange to meet her tomorrow?(sandy) wahh... so drastic. i dun even know if she knows its her. give some good advice. besides calling her or meeting up... any simpler way to protect my stupid pride? try writing a letter. then give her chocs! hehez... or else compose a song for her! smart....(sandy) oh yahh!!! since thats my... ah... forte? i dunno lah. but its still quite paiseh lah. then! you want to walk up to her and blush like a tomato?! no rite? compose a song!!! jia you!(sandy) but must i sing it to her??? i think i'll turn purple lah. lolx... can borrow huishans guitar... it up ter u. follow ure heart! :) (sandy)but my heart cannot be truseted... got weird condition... blahh. dun change topic la! u solve this problem first then talk about ure heart. its FINE! dun think about it...(sandy) yeah yeah. i STILL DUNNO WHAT TO DO! DUNNO WHICH ONE TO PICK LAH. compose a song, write it on the letter, put ON HER DESK and place nice chocs there.(sandy) siao! wait her frens think i crush her how?!?!?! wun one la... put under her desk lo... go super early in the morning... sneak in... :D(sandy) aiyah u know i won't do this kind of thing lahh... this is like, so despo?! are you trying to hint something?!?!?! :P this cannot, that also cannot. then how are you going to take care of it???(sandy) haha, just to let u all know, sandy is standing over my shoulder and typing. kind of a silent conversation. anyway. i dunno lahh!!! this kind of thing so darn paiseh... but i feel super guilty lahh! whatever... at this rate u are going to be 'paishe, guilty etc.' for like ages. no courage, h0w can u call ureself a woMAN?(sandy) wat crap lah... haha. okay. i will be courageous! call her up? yea. we, or maybe juz i, will support you!!!(sandy) okay. time to set things right. but i will prob procrastinate until monday also haven't talk to her... yeah. HOW?! you call NOW! toot la u. if not i shall juz walk out on u. do you know how bloody long i have been here supporting u. u ar... super uber fickle-minded sia! juz call... smile and call. ok?(sandy) problem is i dunno whether i have fully ah, 'recovered'? from my feelings. my bad bad feelings. see first lah. OMG MAN u... hopeless... nvm. i shall call for u then*making my way to ure handphone*(sandy) siao u dun even know her name. YES I DO! see her come after u so many times liao. see u dao her so many times liao. of course know what! now u call!(sandy) u are making me feel even guiltier. wahh but really is it that noticeable? do pple actually notice her looking for me? lolx... duh. ok at least for me. hmmz... why are we waiting???(sandy) i dunno. i can't bring myself to pick up the phone. i think if she picks it up i'll just go... "uhhh.........." haish... wu2 yao4 ke3 jiu4... i call fer u. i say hi. then u do the rest ok?(sandy) not now not now... i must get my heart right first. and. k. i'm in the wrong. (obviously) but do i apologise outright? or just like... "err... actually ah... i... ah... feel quite bad" ? loser. u have absolutely no courage at all... do u know how i sacrificed for you? lolx... anywyas... i gtg le. by tuesday i expect it to be done! if not... im going to approach her! HAHA!(sandy) its not the matter of courage, its the matter of how much humility and pride i have. humility:negative. pride:shoots up to the sky. wth since f cannot be used here. okok... u win,. for now. but u can be sure that i CAN approach her ok? and i will.(sandy) okay lor. i'll try to settle it. i feel so darn guilty! --insert bad words here-- --insert bad words here too-- ok. of course u feel guilty. if not u are not huMAN. juz try to be nice these few days ar... BYE BYE!!! :D jia you!(sandy) okay bye bye.

whoo. what a long conversation that was. yayy. i know what to do. actually no lah. ahhhhhhhhhh!!!

ciao.

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stupid lah!!! I LOST A WHOLE POST! AND I WAS HERE HELPING YOU AND GIVING U ADVICE! THEN U PRESS CTRL V! OMG MAN! (SANDY) FINE FINE I'M A LOSER LAHH... ONLY... SHE NEVER GET TO READ MY ENTRY... HOW WILL SHE KNOW THAT I FEEL GUILTY?? then i shall help you. hilary feels guilty about how she has behaved the past few days. to HER: hilary is really sorry. please forgive her ok?(sandy) aiyoh like that so insincere. MY LAST POST DISAPPEARED LAH!!! SO... LOSER! okay. sign off now.

ciao.

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Thursday, May 19, 2005

eh pple stop teasing lamzy lah... very mean eh. somemore tease non stop. got limit to pple's patience one. i should know... blahh.

haha sandy so funny! the tables have turned... and her reputation lies in my hands... LOL!

today had aesthetics with wong kah luan. haha. went home with vic. quite fun.

serious stuff. sighh. my problem is getting worse. hehe, i think i study too long in RGS liao. was writing down my problem and i kinda did it in the format of richard paul's wheel of reasoning... like got assumptions, points of view, implications... blahh. haha.

anyway. yeahh. i am giving in to sin. sin is so tempting man.... SO TEMPTING! had a crazy thought just now. if she talked to me i would curse her in her face. yes i know thats so unlike me. i dun even know whats happening to me lahh... then the feelings also change all the time. blahh i dunno lah. the last time i had this kind of reckless thought was on... hmm... about 1 month ago? on good friday. haha. so horrible rite. aiyah. i need strength to win this war...

ciao.

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Wednesday, May 18, 2005

this is like so --insert bad words here-- unfair can?! arghh of all pple why must it be her!!! this is not helping my problem one bit. increasing it like a tumbling snowball down a snowy hill. soon it becomes a big snowball and it causes much destruction. i see that day approaching soon man.... self-control!

i really do not get it. why do these things have to happen all at the same --insert bad words here-- time?! is this some kinda test?! spiritual warfare that i just researched on?!

ciao.

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haha i just read a note that me and my fren was writing... in Pr6. haha. i sound so... immature! like over small things i get angry. hehe i hope i have matured a bit. in pri school used to write notes in class a LOT. teacher never ever caught. also during exams i would mouth the answers to syaz and she would mouth back to 'check'. haha! fun fun fun. now... haiyah. change liao. but i think i'm less guai.

today was quite... i dunno? boring? only cle. cos the teachers left the class. then huishan not there also. so everyone was like sms-ing openly lah. also during recess got pple dabao food up to eat... like having picnic in class like that. yeah. then charmaine kept laughing at me. haha i pranked her! i am a good actor man... was working with sandy to convince her that the person in the pic (actually sandra, but very tomboy-ish) was sandra's twin bro. haha! and she actually fell for it lahh! gullible...

then. 5 items. super pissing. very curse inducing also. i think if i hadnt made that pact with God i would have cursed the whole school down. yeah everybody was super pissed... i deproved so much lah! like, last year standing broad jump was 180 over, and now its like, 171?! what has happened to me man... and. sit-ups. i used to be able to do 45 in 1min? now? 38?!?! like whatever with a capital W. hahaha. then. IPU. that was horrible sia. 10. hilary did only 10 pull-ups. when she used to be able to do 14. hilary very sad. hilary has deproved. blahh. and shuttle run. i slowed down by 0.08 seconds. either that or i improved by 0.12 seconds. haha.

whoo when i started walking home was so exhausted, but not really also. i dunno how to describe.

and. horror above all horrors. sandra's cousin is in RIBB. sec3. marcus. i.... am going to get suaned. not that its anything new. resigned to my fate liao.

ciao.

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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

okay okay. this is bad bad bad. i have no idea HOW, but this stupid lamzy and me thing has become distorted beyond belief! and i also dunno HOW, but the news has travelled to 303 and thats not even my class! why? cos of big mouths! haha.

jess. u dun anyhow go and link pple's blog adds in my tagboard k. i tell u sandy will suan me so bad lah! her life purpose is to
suan pple!

sandy. u dun be so big mouth can. do not tell pple stuff that they shouldnt know. even with u and w***** i didnt say a word to anyone about it! and now u're publicising this and suaning me like dunno what! i should have grabbed the chance when i could have man... suan u like mad. haha!

and i also dunno WHY got pple so bored and boliao go and search for pple's blog add through google! thats... like... the ultimate wuliao-ness? whooo.

argh this whole thing is not tease-able at all but dunno how pple can find enough stuff to tease me during class recess and lunch! thats like the whole day!

and i cannot believe that a scandal has sprouted from my tagboard in just two hours.

k. woohoo i just realised i got A for every paper except physics. haha.

ciao.

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Monday, May 16, 2005

today... was quite a good day lah. although if i hadnt set things right with God it would have been horrible. hee. yeah all the lessons went okay... yeah. :D

then. gb. okay. was okay towards it. went to jojo's class. then changed and went down. i look super TOOT with my shirt tucked into my shorts can? yeah. then i met valteo. and. she. said. "eh hilary why u suddenly look so sexy today ah?" and. i. was. like. -.-" and jojo said:" do u realise that she just said that u were sexy?" and that is also so -.-"

wasnt really expecting the kind of worship or devotion that happened today. yeah. a lot of pple cried but i controlled myself! cos if i start crying it will be really bad... like really broken kneeling on the floor kind. hehe. but i controlled! will do all my stuff in private. anyway i'd done most of the clearing up and asking God to come into my life again yesterday alr... maybe shall do it again.

then had drill. eeee. we have deproved a lot. but i finally understand long commands! yayy! it just came upon me like a revelation... like when dot was commanding i noticed a pattern... hehe. i have broken the long command code! lol so lame.

ora debriefing and camp comm meeting. whoa. lasted about 1hr? so xiong. i never even realised that there were sec2s listening! i thought they were all in the gb room or sth.... then debbie was like... haha. i dunno. the sec2s werent really there when she debriefed us further bout the funds... cos i think they thought we had moved on to camp stuff. but i never realised! they were hiding in a corner!

the camp comm were all munching on green apples... yumm! wahh the deadlines are seriously tight... have to go call the shirt person. maybe i'll go call p wong's mum? cos she does shirts. hey all the stuff that i kinda learnt from being in youth camp comm are really coming in handy... like the fonts for the board and the shirt contacts and all... hehe.

then. when it was time to go home. i thought mich went home alr... then i saw them in the corner! i thought they had some fellowship thing and they were ***ing over sth that touched them or sth... so i thought nothing was wrong. okay i'm super slow. scold me. then i gracez asked me to talk to mich. i was like, "huh????" yeah. fine fine yes i am really slow.

went home. hope i cheered mich up? and. i cannot believe i am capable of saying such... such... such... sweet stuff! like i can practically feel the ants starting to crawl... too sweet! blahh. but... aiyah. it was okay lah.

sandy and rshl u all better keep your mouths shut... dun talk rubbish.

ciao.

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Sunday, May 15, 2005

hmm... now i feel happy happy happyy!!! i dunno why also.. hehe. this mood is a super big change from just now that mood... look down to read my entry typed out at about... 6-7hrs ago? woohoo... yayy i feeeel sooo happyyyy!!! haha.

and i think i'm slow. yq's blog add. i thought ribb was some kind of rib with an extra 'b'. took me about 2days to actually realise that he means ri bb. haha. i am slow at understanding pple's blog adds lah...

okie. look down for the entry typed out just now!

i feel sian. i dun like feeling sian. was feeling sian the whole entire day. started from yesterday night. continued until now. throughout baptism class. hehe except when i was having class lah. and even during worship. i just gave up trying to sing. last three songs i just stared and tried to digest the words. quite effective but... i dunno. its been a long time since i worshipped like i used to. worship used to be a time where i could go close to Him and feel His presence but now... its just... singing. or rather stoning cos thats what i do. yeah in gb, church, everything. poor worship leaders haha. have to see my sian face. and my stoning position. hands in pockets, slouching, looking straight ahead. ahhhhhh.

and now. i thought i had a plan for the gb board. i thought. now its like... what?? yeah. and its supposed to be up tmr. gb... GB!!! arghhhh!!! i shall refrain from saying anymore about my cca here.

but i love my batch. i like my year! full of nice pple... in school church and cca. yayy. although the sec3 gals class is super small (2-3?) its good in that way. its much easier to share... and we know each other quite well. also my batchmates... my batch is small lah. yeah and again thats good. cos the sec2s and sec1s have cliques within their batches... sec2s is divided into gep-ers and non gep-ers. sec1s also. kind of. i dun really see the gep-ers mixing with the non gep-ers.

hmm. spiritual warfare. quite a lot of pple going through it. yeahh. a lot of pple are in trouble now... like me! and jon! and pple have a lot difficulties... like tiff! and pple are really going through spiritual warfare... like charleen! and inexplicable down-ness... like sherlyn!

also got a lot of weird feelings. hmm. jealousy. is very dangerous. i should suppress it. and... something. which is distracting me a lot. and sian-ness. comes out all of a sudden. and pride. i know its always there.

stress. came up from a lot of things. at first was school and EOIs. that i can handle. then... sigh. GB! ora, the board, the losing of the stuff... raHHHHH!!!!!! really sick of it. stop stop stop.

maybe i shall go compose a song. and maybe call tiff to crap. and maybe talk to valteo a bit since she makes me laugh a lot. or maybe... just sleep. TEMPTING! but... no. hmm. i wonder why i didnt list down praying?

siannnnn.

ciao.

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Saturday, May 14, 2005

today... ora! haha. it was quite okay lah. although super tiring. woke up at 5.30? left the house at 6? sat 88 and slept... listened to tonghua and danlian all the wayy... haha! so nice.

at first everything was quite frantic... everybody looking for stuff. then later it became quite okay. yayy go ora i/cs!

oh. and i discovered something. mich! bryan! or is it brian! HAHAHHAHAAAA!!! wahh mich is actually so attractive eh... got so many boys zhui1 her... i never knew.. whoa he likes her and she doesnt like him... LOL! hey jon u got competition! jiayou a bit lah! i cannot believe it man... i have found more things to tease her about! laughing now. HAHHAHAHAHA!!! then somemore refuse to tell me his name ah... embarrassed ah?! heheheheeee...

sold 12-13 coconuts today. i kinda feel sorry for sandratayhui. cos she was kinda forced and bribed by me to buy a coconut. and i'm gonna call her tayhui from now on. dunno why her name reminds me of chaytng. and now i know why her blog add is her blog add. at first thought it was cos she liked the name sandrath. i like it. but she's called tayhui! ahahahaha!!!

hehe it feels good to be old. we were allowed to cut the fruits but the lower sec pple werent. haha. saw the ri bb boys. got yongqian to buy a coconut from me at twelve! haha. and its been a year alr... they still teasing lamzy! i think. wahaha poor guy.

then there was a cockroach among the bags. it suddenly ran out and pple were screaming... like my laogong! haha. then i kinda kicked/shooed it away. and it went under the band icecream stall. oops. wahh the cleaning up was horrible! everywhere was oily and wet and full of squashed fruits... but we did it!

haha very funny. sometime i went to the stall to put money into the container. then i heard someone say "she's beside u." so i turned to the person. and was shocked. valteo screamed right in my face! so... shocking. and throughout the time when she was there she kept stuffing sausages into my mouth. she would tap me and i would turn to her with my mouth a bit open and i suddenly find a sausage in my mouth. haha! thanks octeopus... oh ya appreciate u coming down to help in the stall... :D and thanks for helping to clean up... mopping the floor and stuff. and her letter... was very amusing. her letters always amusing.

hmm i think i'm very sensitive to pple cleaning up. as in i hate it when pple just go away and leave the cleaning up to the same old pple who always do it. and when pple do stay back i appreciate it a lot. yayy thank you to all who came down to help and to clean up!

then after that... batch meeting! whooooo! i love my batch! i think its the best batch lah... hehe when we all got to sit down we were all like sighing with relief... cos some of us didnt sit down for like 6hrs?

discussed. sidetracked a lot. but it was so fun! haha all of a sudden we were all talking in rhymes.... chao funny. we should all take lit. and the irritating football boys kept kicking the ball near us. and i made a disgusting statement. i shall not say it. lol. sighh we should have more batch meetings. love them! so fun. i think we WILL have more batch meetings to plan...

then went home with my laogong.. we live so close to each other! i think only 5-6 bus stops away. besides having an expressway in between lah. but its only 10min long? hehe. played tonghua and danlian on repeat again. and slept. bus kept
jerking. woke up a lot. haha.

went home. slept. so soundly. 2 and a half hours. totally knocked out. blahh. have so much to do this weekend...

oh no. oh no. this is bad. bad bad bad. better pray.

ciao.

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Friday, May 13, 2005

today... rshl was chao funny lah... haha. am i slow? cos rshl was trying to explain a... concept to me. and it took me the whole morning to understand it. then she explained it to charmaine and she got it in like, 1min? whoo.

so sad. didnt run 2.4 today. was planning to lah. but doc say cannot. blahh. pple recovering from flu cannot run. cos got possibility of death. haha! there was this newspaper article few years back about this man. he recovered from flu. then he went jogging. then he died. sigh.

hmm. yesterday night went to watch the ten tenors. their voices are GOOD. and i like the 2 guys with the long hair. haha! hil likes australian guys with long hair. lol...

. to mich. yeah u did ask me. and yeah i didnt really tell u. k. if u want u can call me up and ask anything u want. i'll tell u stuff for 15min. if its not too private. offer lasts till midnight! haha.... if u sleeping then too bad lah.

to jon. haha dun worry too much. and dun do that again. yeahh. take care...

to valteo. u tagged yesterday that u missed me or sth rite. i saw u yesterday recess! haha.

ciao.

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Wednesday, May 11, 2005

today... morning. went out to my locker. was singing tonghua. then suddenly someone tapped me. haha. yeah.

went to respiratory specialist today... got the results of the blood test back... and... sth was... not quite right. there is a possibility... that i might have this thingy. oh and my bronchitis was most prob caused by legionella. supposedly quite lethal, known to kill. heh. whoooo. apart from that... its more the blood thingy thats quite... unexpected? so the doc sent me for another blood test. to confirm. if it is confirmed... then maybe i'll go talk to stuart or rita. yeah. haha.

went back to school to help out. whoa debbie has her own fanclub... grace you have competition! lol. then got chased by mich, who kinda slipped. yeah. was defending myself with a chair. hehe. then valteo that girl ah. more like the other pple. sujin and mich. talking rubbish lah. haha.

ciao.

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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

argh argh argh the super stressed feeling is coming back... and i'm so dead. I AM SO DEAD MISS WONG IS GONNA KILL ME AND MY BLOOD WILL STAIN THE FLOOR, TO BE LEFT AS A MEMORY OF HILARY, THE GIRL WHO ONCE LIVED. seriously very scared. very very very scared. i'm gonna avoid her at all costs man. argh argh argh i'm freaking out i dun wanna see her......... ahhhhhh!!!

then ora. feel super guilty. SUPER GUILTY! and i'm still scared scared scared of miss wong. arghhhhh she is gonna SLAUGHTER me!!! and. i take back whatever i said about the sec 1s. cos i'm worse than them. ten times worse. i am so NOT a good example man... argh argh argh i'm never gonna scold a sec1 again cos i dun deserve to... hehe lucky sec1s.

i just wanna listen to tonghua and fall asleep. sleep is a wonderful escape. only i kinda wish it would be a bit more permanent. I DUN WANNA SEE MISS WONG SHE IS GONNA KILLLLL MEEEEEEE!!!

i'm so dead i'm so dead i'm so dead i'm so dead.............. I'M GONNA DIE!!! nooooooo!!! oh. but how i want my tombstone (if i have one) to be crafted has been designed by me alr. its somewhere in my bible. i drew it... 1 and a half years ago? yeah.

gb. i've gotten quite a bit out of it. haha, it was actually sth said by miss leow that led me to try playing the keys for church. bet you all didnt know that! ha! and... i dunno. the spiritual growth? character? i dunno. but. now. arghhhhhhh...........

i am gonna be on high alert from now on. where miss wong is, u will not see me. SHE IS SO GONNA KILL MEE!!!

ciao.

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Monday, May 09, 2005

today... has been a moderately bad day. pissed off by juniors... and got gb. somemore full u. blahh.

the day had a very bad start. overslept by about 40min. 10min before i had to leave the house. so my first coherent thought of the day was "OH MY GOSH". yeah before that was dreaming about innuendo... i dunno why. then have to iron gb uni... prepare refreshments and eat medicine and make sure all my uni parts are there... in the end pulled it off. only didnt eat breakfast, so brought my antibiotics to sch to eat.

rest of the day was okay, fast forward to before gb. saw valteo. she said sth... very... weird. and she knows my chinese name. thats okay. perfectly fine. yeah. then went into gb room, found out the sec1s didnt bring any food. at all. like, --insert bad words here-- ?!?!?! so unreliable pissing --insert more bad words here--. then also the ora they like so --insert bad words again--... arghh...

and during rollcall when i was sweating like dunno what valteo kept pulling her frens over to look at me. i think. stop it. very irritating.

then had worship. then had devotions. then had drill. then had refreshments. and the juniors DIDNT CLEAN UP WHEN WE TOLD THEM TO! any idea how irritating it is to have a super long meeting full of things to do, then find out that the cleaning up has been left to us again?! very irritating!

then went home. sat mich car. and. arghhhhh. she kept asking. i dunno. felt. ???

tmr is a very science day. got bio physics chem in the first 3 blocks. then geog. trip sci geog! haha.

ciao.

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Sunday, May 08, 2005

theres so much things to do and i'm just running away from it i'm such a pathetic loser.

all the stuff from gb, the refreshments, the board (!!!!!!!!), ora billboards, ora STALL NAME (!!!!!!!!!), all the stuff from school, the english essay (!!!!!!!!!) the chem perf task reflections (!!!!!!!!!!)...

seriously i feel like dropping them all and running away and thats wat i'm doing now dun u all think i am the perfect example of a loser with a capital L? run run run away, avoid talking about it, avoid thinking about it, just going to sleep...... i actually want to do those stuff and i think i am gonna do those stuff. i dun even wanna lift a finger to try to start the things i have to do.
i dun like it i can't stand it i'm sick of it i hate it i wanna be rid of it

THERE'S JUST SO MUCH THINGS TO DOOOOOOOOO!!! AND IT HAS BEEN THIS WAY FOR THE PAST 3 WEEKS I NEED REST I NEED TO SLOW DOWN I NEED TO STOP I NEED TO BREATHE I NEED TO RUN AWAY I NEED GOD!!!

honour the sabbath and keep it holy//come to me all who are weary and burdened and i will give you rest//where can i find rest?//

i'm starting to give up.

ciao.

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sighhhh..... tmr is gonna be a bad day. got gb. haha. i'm getting increasingly irritated with the teachers... then somemore tmr is full u... they surely pick on my boots and whatnot. pick pick pick, why u never shine your boots properly! u look so untidy! how much time did u spend on your boots! u must spend more time! more effort! put some heart into it! blah blah blahhhhhhh... thinking about it puts me off.

and i'm in charge of the gb board! super sian can? rraHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

i wanna run away. make some angry songs. run away from this stupid lifestyle of endless stuff to do. this so licks. heh heh heh. but i can never run away from God. "when i make my bed in the depths You are there" somewhere in psalm 139. "where can i run from your spirit? where can i flee from your presence?"

ARGGHHHHHHHHH!!!! i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this hate it hate it hate it HATE IT!!!

stupid cca.

ciao.

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Friday, May 06, 2005

whoooooooo! exams are over!! today this man came up to make an announcement saying that the EOIs are actually not exams. the sec3s were like "yeahhh righht..." very audible. lol!

then was math. i think i made a careless mistake. but i dun really care. haha! it was quite easy. yayy.
then after that had debate and rs. then went out with pngteh! yeahhh! so long nvr go out with pngteh alr. haha, whenever the exams finish pngteh sure go out one. we went out for lunch. but then grace and i had to go, so eva followed. woohoo pngteh is divided into half taking trip sci geog and half taking trip sci hist. the geog pple do things very fast, the hist pple left behind in the past, trying to catch up. its true lah, half the time grace jieshi and i were walking in front. then when we bought our food grace jieshi and i were half finished by the time the other three came back to the table... lol!

and i am recovering from being sick! got bronchitis. hoho. doc made me take an xray and a blood test. sounds so serious. but i'm recovering so who cares! hehe, if i still had fever today he would have put me in hospital... but i'm okay so who cares! dunno if i can take my 2.4 next week. but i'm still okay so who cares! yayyy. hoho.

suddenly i'm saying hoho a lot. must be gracez and debbie. hoho.

ciao.

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Sunday, May 01, 2005

"Remember the Sabbath day by keeping it holy. six days you shall labour and do all your work, but the seventh day is a Sabbath to the LORD your God. on it you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your manservant or maidservant, nor your animals, nor the alien within your gates. For in six days the LORD made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but He rested on the seventh day. therefore the LORD blessed the sabbath and made it holy." Exodus 20:8-11

hmm. honour the LORD by keeping the sabbath holy. its a command.

i noticed a certain pattern in my rising and falling temperatures. when i started studying today, my temperature rose. to 39 degrees. then i stopped studying. and i went to play piano to worship. then my temperature fell to 37.3 degrees. but that could have been cos i was sweating a lot when i played the piano... didnt on the fan. ya. so when i disobey the LORD by working on the sabbath, my temp rises. when i praise the LORD, my temp falls. but this could be purely a concidence. but then again it may not be.

sigh somehow i feel like i havent gone to church for a long time liao. and i havent played the guit for gb for a long time liao.

ciao.

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